There is one extra crucial factor that i have been rejecting these men who approached me: they are younger than me! There was this young man whom i met in Yuma's burger king restaurant who asked for my phone number the moment i got out of the washroom. My first thought was: if i go out with you, people will probably think that i am out with you for class excursion! My low self esteem is also hindering my saying 'yes' to these men, for the fact that one fine day they will find out i am so much older than them, i know i would be dumped immediately so why should i put myself through such agony...
Right, you probably would say that I still possess some market 'value' because i am still approached by men at this age. I do enjoy being given such attention but only for a moment because when these men started to call me, i really get scared...ha... yeap, too afraid to step into any form of relationship, too afraid to be rejected/dump/cast away...
Was i that unattractive back in Singapore? Why was there no one who asked for my number back in my younger times? Well, maybe i should enjoy such 'treatment' (if there is anymore) in my remaining months here in US because i will never get such attention anymore back in singapore...hee....
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