When women gather together, we talk about work, life, dreams and of course, man. So what do men talk about when they gather? That saturday night at Cheesecake factory, I was telling Jean and Vijay about a black guy who wanted to date me out that day. As usual, i was too 'afraid' to really date a man whom i met out on the streets. Americans are brought up to be more initiative and 'aggressive' when it comes to dating a woman out.
Back in 2008, there was this teacher who persistently wanted to ask me out to a dance festival in Chicago downtown. I turned him down because i was already heading to New York for my tour and so i didn't answer his calls after the day we met. He was a white and subsequently, i met a few white guys who asked for my phone numbers. However, i turned everyone down because of my biasness against the americans. I always felt that they can never be 'perfect' boyfriends or partners due to the bad 'reviews' of them being frivolous and disloyal. I do not deny i am being racist against this black guy and the biasness is even more due to the fact that alot of crime rate involved the black men especially, thus my insecurity. Seriously, i should be punished for harbouring such incorrigible notions and thoughts.
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