当我得空的时候，我便不由思索、没头没脑地胡想一番，任由思绪在脑门子里乱踹。最近老是记得那天和chiumei见面吃斋时所聊的一件事。她说的没错，我们这么多年不见，她在精神方面胜过我许许多多，不，应该说不只是她。 我的理念打从在美居留了3年早已改变， 但是我并没有找到精神的寄托。兜兜转转教育界十几年了，我却没法教育自己，当局者迷，我应验了此句。她说我至今仍无法定下心来，我想，这也导致我无法定下性来吧！
现在工作是为了糊口饭吃，但是我为谁，为什么而活？我不知道。难道没有信仰，没有神明信念的我真的就没有法子活出人生的意义？窝藏在这个臭皮囊的灵魂需要什么样的超度，需要什么获得所谓的解救吗？我还是不知，也许，我是不想知道.....
最近对什么事都不再有年轻时那股热忱与激荡的心情了，甚至有些行尸走肉似的，这般‘糜烂’的活着是否是一种罪过？谁能让我悟出个做人的真谛和道理？道道道，何谓道...哎哟，得空也这样想，不得空也这样想.....我是太得空啦！
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2 comments:
hey cousin, do some voluntary work to keep your mind busy...haha...u are too free! who knows from there you can learn some valuable thing...
yes, was thinking of that when i saw the volunteer page on sat newspapers. But now am waiting for opportunities on my career advancement and do not have a fix teaching schedule yet until next year... tks for listening!
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