Quote of the day: When you feel at your worst is when you get to know yourself best. --Sean Koegh

Emotional baggage allowance

Recently, i watched this taiwan drama serial which typically builds around the plot of a love story of four. As the drama unfolds, it is almost predictable what the next scene will depict on. Then after a long struggle of the four-love triangle, there is a refreshing part portrayed by the grandpa character. He was giving advice to the second male lead. The grandpa was asked why he was willing to spend half his life waiting for his lover who had never returned since the day she left him. He described that the first emotions that he had was furious and anger. As months and years passed, he began to understand and he learnt to appreciate what he had before. His love turned to hatred, from hatred to relief of emotional baggage and finally from the emotional baggage release to self-awareness.

As i aged, this self-awareness occurs often more than i have expected and many friends that used to be so close have left me. I treasured those times i had with them and i know that it will never be the same again even if we meet and get together again. I owe no one and no one owns me, ultimately we will leave this world naked and we can bring no one. After all baggage allowance is always limited, it pays to have too much emotional baggage. So whoever i meet now, i leave it to fate to decree.