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目睹身边有许多迁就的例子， 有人为了让家庭幸福美满，于是迁就身边最至亲的人，就算不是自己喜欢做的事，为投其所好也好，心甘情愿也好，迁就成了无时无刻的‘工作’，无可厚非？更看到有的丈夫为迁就老婆，就算自己妻子无理取闹，也仍然笑脸迎人，能迁就多少就迁就多少，无怨无悔？谦让以后是否感情更深、两人彼此更珍惜对方？也许有人会说，这不叫迁就，这是爱、爱戴、爱护、爱惜.....什么都好，不都包括了迁就的成分吗？凡是都是各让一步，才能海阔天空嘛。
我不懂，因为我从未真正谈过恋爱，也从未有人迁就过我，我根本无法体会出自于一个情人迁就时的心情。但是我非常能理解和感受到朋友所迁就我的时刻，而且在我这一生中有无数次如此珍贵又值得思念的回忆。若不是我有家人和朋友的迁就，不会有今天的我，我无以回报，只能在脑海里如广播般反复地重播，生怕有一天我会忽然忘了还是失忆了。曾为我付出时光、精力的你们，我铭记心中，决不忘怀！只有这样，我才不会因为无法像你们迁就我那般回应你们而感到自己的不足和失落。有朝一日，我若能偿还，我会迁就。
今天又起得晚，所以韦玲叫我懒猪。11点半送她到了机场。向来不善于拥抱人的我还是表现出我的‘洋派’，拥抱了乖巧可爱的文茜,然后是韦玲！顿时我们俩都不敢正视对方，是尴尬也好，也是我要飙出眼泪也好，我很快上了车便头也不回地驾走！‘憎相会 爱别离 人生怎可能尽如人意’这歌词中有多少人会有如此般的感觉，至少我从没有，我恨离别然而天下有不散之筵席，我知道人生不可能尽如人意。回想过来，曾几何时，原来我们之间的友谊已经在岁月中无形地发展了，不知道她是否当时与我感同身受。
但我很快又收拾起心情再度上路，这毕竟是我第一次一个人独自驾的那么老远回到亚利桑那。那天从家里驾到圣地亚哥也是我一人包办但回程由于没人陪我聊天，我只好啃糖让自己清醒。驾了大约260多英里后，我昏昏欲睡，几度差点想随便找个地方在车里打盹一会儿。后来还是坚持到了Yuma,才吃汉堡王作为午餐，那时已经是2点半了，肚子不饿但胃口很好。休息半小时左右，灌了咖啡又再度飙上高速公路直奔到Goodyear。对自己很满意，因为我只在这5个小时内歇息了一次，而且一路几乎超过全程的一半我都飙上95英里，碰到几辆警车，不过还好有惊无险！
无可避免的，我精神上和身体已经无法再支撑下去。回到家，第一件事便是想要睡觉，晚餐也不想吃。谁料到，车库里的水箱竟然破了个洞，地上已经有一滩水，眼看‘事态’不妙，便立刻给屋主摇了个电话，睡觉计划就这样被破坏了。还好，屋主果然万事通，样样会修理，半小时内一切搞定。
9点多煮了粥来吃，忽然觉得很寂寞，这两周来都有韦玲和女儿陪我吃饭，今天我又打回原形了。这是我要的生活吗？我能一辈子独自过活吗？也许我根本别无选择，我是应该尽我的本能勇敢活下去，比我遭遇不幸的大有人在，这样想，我一定会好过些......
Today is Wednesday, yet there is quite a substantiate number of people strolling on the beach and the pier. There were also a handful of surfers all clad in their wet suits riding on the waves. Having treaded on La Jolla beach this morning, i believe the waters is about 10 deg celsius here in ocean beach. How i wish i was one of them surfing on the strong and powerful waves of the mighty pacific ocean.
Due to the foggy weather today, the pier looks almost like the pathway to heaven, Catherine said. It is romantic and no wonder couples embraced themselves on the pier, soaking in a world of their own. Though we could not see far with the thick fog, we still enjoyed the walk on the pier and find our own peace within, for which, makes me ponder about life. Many times we do not know what lies in front of us, we thought the fog will disperse by late afternoon but it didn't. Somehow i didn't feel disappointed because we see a different view and perhaps even the people who went there could be feeling the same as we would. I would love to come back to the beaches of san diego, this could be because Singapore too have the similar beaches, i guess i am missing the sea again. Life is unexpecting, i have many memories and some are really tormenting and some makes me appreciate for what life is meant to be. Yes, if only life can be what i am doing now, to see the beaches and stroll down the pier with no qualms of worries or troubles, just peace...if only....
有人告诉我很喜欢看我的博客，我竟然有网迷？！！太不可思议了！很多时候，写写东西，抒发自己的情感，偶尔卖弄文笔，偶尔只纯粹为了好玩，甚至是跟上潮流。
因为有人看，有人关心，有人哪怕只瞧一眼，都能激发我再继续写。
双鱼座的我是浪漫主义者，而且是浪漫得无可救药！然而这个世界并不是梦幻，我常常不得不向世人低头，得脚踏实地。可能我这样的追随导致我无法找到我的真爱，也更加无法让我有勇气去说给以前的他：你可能是我的唯一。生命中的过客有太多太多，甚至有时一个曾经为你出生入死的朋友到头来也只是在我人生中擦肩而过，多悲哀，多无奈呀！我不需要更多的过客，我需要的是永恒的朋友，永久的爱情！咳，老天现在对我可说是不刻薄了，为什么感觉好像难如登天？缘分可遇不可求，曾经拥有，难道真不能天长地久？这样的想法真的是贪心，是奢望吗？
也许就是这世界的无绝对，才能勾画出这么色彩斑斓、绚丽夺目的人生，好让像我如此般不知足的家伙有所梦想、有所追求。或许我也可以在这短短的生命中注入了一些让人刮目相看的片断。所以只要有人阅，便有我不断地编。
That night as i watched 'Nim's Island', there was one part of the script that i can relate to. Nim asked her father,"What is courage?" "He said courage is the something that you learn and relearn in your life to do the things you want."
I have no lack of very encouraging friends who said that i am very courageous to live the way i am living now. Perhaps what i have is simply impulsiveness and a stubborn belief that i can overcome anything in this world!
Yet, for all those years when awareness sets in, something i have never had the courage to do is to tell those that i loved, "i have loved you all this time, did you ever notice me?" Is it because i have always shown my independency so much so that no one noticed that i need to be protected, i need to be showered with care and concern, that i am not as courageous as what i have portrayed. It's my own fault, actually, because opening up to people is not what i have always believed in and do, not even to the dearest people around me. Swallowing pain and sorrow seemed to be my forte a long time.
Yes, i still lack the courage to do alot of things. I am still learning or perhaps relearning, thinking and rethinking, to truly act upon my thoughts of especially what i should do in the near future or even tomorrow. Alas, am at LOSS again!
Life is too short for me to procrastinate and time will never stand still in terms of happiness. To unseal the 'courage' within me, it has got to be me...somehow...
